Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will tear me to pieces...

I think that’s an appropriate revision of that saying, the last part was bullshit. It was probably made up by some fat loser who got tired of all the verbal abuse and desperately needed something to console him and keep him from slitting his wrists. Not that he’d get anywhere; he’d probably just be cutting through layers of cholesterol for hours. Words do hurt. And the worst part is that all it takes is an idle moment to utter something that could scar someone so deeply. If you’re a fat loser, then my idle rant proves my point...
Today I was reminded of this fact. Some harmless teasing went way out of control and at the end of it I was hurt and furious. I showed the furious bit, not the hurt one. I’m a bit too proud for that.
Anyway, I digress.
Words hurt. And as I sat there stewing silently in complete disbelief at the effect that those seemingly harmless words had had on me, I realised that I make people feel the same way almost on a daily basis. I have a very quick temper and an even faster tongue. Sometimes before I realise it, a snide remark or stinging comment has already escaped my lips. I may just be in a bad mood, irritated with the slow service at a restaurant, annoyed because the sun is too hot and I forgot to put some sun block on... regardless of the reason, the minute my temperament takes a turn for the worst, my tongue becomes sharper and my words harsher.
Why you ask?
Fucked if I know... Is it because I’m in a shitty mood and I feel the need to make everyone feel the same? Or is it just an expression of my irritation or anger? Maybe I’m one of those sadistic people who likes to see people suffer? Highly unlikely though, otherwise I wouldn’t feel bad right?
I don’t know why, I’ll try figure it out... all I know is that it needs to stop... cause damn, words really fuckin hurt...

hmmm....

Is it weird to like someone you haven’t even met? Cause it happened to me. I had a facebook crush. And not because he was hot or anything (I’m not saying that he’s not, he’s smokin!) but because we clicked. He knew how to make me laugh. So I kinda fell for his personality, and for how he made me feel. Then I met him. And it felt like I’d been hit by a freight train... he’s AWESOME!! Tall, sexy, he’s got eyes that make me melt... and here’s the best part, he likes me too :) but (sadly, there’s always a but :( sigh...) he’s leaving soon (what’s with me and all these guys who I meet, fall for and then they have to leave?) and we’re not sure if having a relationship would be practical... so we’re trying to figure it out... I’m officially a believer in cyber love.... or cyber like at least :)